I am...

...made beautiful by Him.

I tell myself that everyday, but I never believe it. I spoke to Joel the other day and told him that I just don't love myself. He looked at me for a moment and finally said, "No, it's not that you don't love yourself, it's that you don't accept yourself." The first words out of my mouth were, "huh! I think you're right." He explained to me that if I didn't love myself, I wouldn't do certain things to please myself. Ex: Go rock climbing, taking a shower, spending over 40 dollars on one sitting of sushi...ect.

As of lately, it seems as if I've been answering certain questions without thinking. But I think the answers I immediately have been blurting out lately have come from the heart. I walked into the store one afternoon during my lunch break and Caitlin asked how I was doing. Without blinking, taking a breath and of course not thinking, I quickly said, "I'm trying to find my identity in Christ right now." After both our laughters died down as we were confused about my response, I couldn't help but think about how true that statement was...or is. I'm trying to figure out what it means to find my identity in Christ and to see how it looks.

God took me out on a date a few days ago. It was probably the best day I've had all semester so far. He showed me His creation, His love, His beauty, and how I am made perfect in His image. I let go and He broke down a wall that I've held on to for far too long. I haven't felt so free in such a long time. I couldn't help but be reminded of His kingdom and how it's here. haha, wow, it just brings a huge smile to my face.

You're calling me to lay aside
the worries of my day.
To quiet down my busy mind
And find a hiding place.

Worthy, You are worthy.

I open up my heart and let
my spirit worship Yours.
I open up my mouth and let
a song of praise come forth.

Worthy, Worthy.

Of a child like faith and
Of my honest praise
Of my unashamed love.
Of a holy life and
Of my sacrifice
Of my unashamed love.

Worthy, You are worthy.